going on a rollercoaster i really like, but then at the biggest loop, the train derails and I am shown why I need to live, most of these images were of my crush who I can't date and celebrities, before I hit the ground I woke up
This dream could represent your internal struggle with taking risks in life. The rollercoaster may symbolize your desire for excitement and adventure, but the derailment and near-death experience may represent your fear of failure or uncertainty. The images of your crush and celebrities may suggest that you're seeking fulfillment or validation from external sources rather than within yourself. The dream ending right before you hit the ground could indicate that you're still grappling with these issues and haven't found a resolution yet. It may be helpful for you to reflect on what truly matters to you and what you're looking for in life to find a sense of direction and purpose.